Tossing and Turning

Okay, someone needs to come to Tahiti and shoot me. I don’t know why I’m so confused! Being on the fence about my new plan is an understatement. Some people think my new idea sounds crazy, which is what everyone said when I decided to start Project BlueSphere to begin with, and others think it’s brilliant, personally I don’t know what to think anymore.

It may just be the fact that I’m homesick. I don’t fit in here. It’s really touristy and expensive. It is beautiful don’t get me wrong, but everything is highly commercialized. I can’t afford to go out, drink a beer, or hike to a waterfall. I’m feeling like a fish out of water and perhaps I’m reaching. I can’t go to the store without spending fifty dollars for just a few days food. I can’t spearfish because the fish have ciguatera, diesel is close to five bucks a gallon, and I’m going to have a really tuff time provisioning here to move on. The guy in the immigration office was so rood to me it boggles my mind. Tahiti has exhausted my purse in a very short while. I went out with a few friends last week and decided to buy 3 cups of coffee ($12), “is that really necessary”? The other thing is I haven’t been back to the States for many years, perhaps I wouldn’t fit in either? I don’t want to sound like I’m bagging on Tahiti, but it is certainly not for me. I was boarded yesterday by the French. Their inflatable left black scuff marks all over my hull as well as scuff marks on my decks from boots. My friends on Ospray were boarded a few days ago and the “authorities” spend hours rummaging through underwear and scrutinizing every herb, powder, and cubby. I think it’s because Yanni has long hair. The storm troopers from star wars come to mind. What is the matter with people?

One of my subscribers said “it sounds like you need a vacation”. A vacation to me would be to sail to a place where I could live simple again without the hum of business, development, and police. My friends have also either gone back to the states or moved on. The road west is split here. Some go northwest to Samoa, and some more South to Tonga. Which way should I go, Perhaps backwards is not a good option?

I think I need to split, vamoose, and sail out of here. The sea and Namaste have never let me down and I just need to move on. I think I would really like living with the indigenous people of the Solomon Islands. Maleria is a big issue and I would need to be careful, “its inevitable” they say.

I’m going to fix the leek on my motor today. In the next few days I’ll have the radar project finished and I’ll be free once again.

Peace, Love, and Clarity!

Alex