Every once in a while I burst out laughing, perhaps it a sign that I’m spending too much time alone or perhaps I’m just loosing my mind, or a combination of both.
This morning was like most. I woke up around 5:20am, made a cup of coffee and laid-down in the cockpit.
It was truly a beautiful sunrise. The monkeys on Isla Linton were making a racket on the beach, and a flock of big Blue McCaws flew over head. It wasn’t raining, but lightning lit the jungle over the mainland as the sun was rising. My CD of choice this morning was Niel Young’s (After the Gold Rush). I just thought to myself “WOW”, this is normal. This isn’t a vacation or a transitory chapter of my life; this is how I choose to live. How is it I used to be so good at my job, and so bad at living my life? Why did I spend so many years pursuing things and people that didn’t really matter…, why did I waste so much time?
I’ll be heading back to the San Blas in a few days. I can’t wait to get back to my daily routine of reading, spear-fishing, cooking, writing, and generally being at peace with the world around me. I haven’t spent much of my life at peace with anything; it’s really a welcome change. The days feel like putting on that old sweater that fits so well, you can never replace it, nor would you want to, it just fits, and makes you smile every time you wear it.
Another thought crossed my mind which made me a bit sad. The longer I’m away, the less in common I have with my old friends. I feel like I’m detaching from my old life, leaving it far in the past. A few days ago I looked through the pictures of my life. I couldn’t recognize myself. My hair, cloths, car, girlfriends were so…, I don’t know…, perfectly imperfect.
I’m getting serious about shooting the next DVD. I’m thinking it will be “Colombia to New Zealand”, that should be a good one eah?
Enough babble.
Find some time for yourself this weekend. When was the last time you just listened to music, not while you were doing something else, just sit down and listened to music? If your under 20, probably not that long ago, and chances are if your over 65 probably not that long ago either. The days in the middle of our life seem to be painfully slow sometimes, but the years fly by, at least that’s how it used to be for me, what a waste. Forgetting about your peace is a hard lesson to learn, we don’t get those years back. We must take time for ourselves, and selfish is not a bad word unless you’re hurting someone.
Take time!
Peace, love, and Coconuts.
– Alex
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