ARrGGGG!

Today is a carbon copy of yesterday, and yesterday a carbon copy of the previous week. The movie “Joe verses the Volcano” comes to mind as I feel I’m suffering from a brain cloud and trapped somewhere between a life of redundant madness and the glory of the South Pacific, just like Joe. Have you seen it?

Occasionally I’m finding I need to take a moment to gather my wits as I’m feeling a bit claustrophobic and surrounded by a very large mote. I’m not worried or anything, just happy this feeling didn’t decide to pop up 1500 miles ago where I would surly be looking at a long time before landfall, 480 miles to go, tick tock alex!

I have learned why I have such difficulty with my harness; I have a problem with restraint. I do use it when weather is particularly bad, however when I feel the tug of its secure tether the small hairs on the back of my neck stand on end. I don’t feel as I’m doing anything dangerous and I’m sure statistically driving down the freeway is much more dangerous than life on Namaste even without my harness.

It is a beautiful day and I am moving along at a steady pace of 3-3.5kts. Reading is a good distraction from the boredom but every once and a while I have to put my book down to fight off a little dizziness from the motion and close focus of my book. I hope the anchorage a Hiva Oa isn’t too rollie, if it is I may pith a tent on the beach. I need to consciously make something to eat because I’ve lost interest in eating, or preparing food. I have noticed that I’ve lost a few pounds.  

I’m not returning my Instant messages because it is hard to focus on my small monitor (which is working) at the nav station. I think I may need new glasses, or perhaps a stable environment, I don’t know yet. I’ll get back to everyone as soon as I can, and yes I do like the instant messages and look forward to them all day.   

I think I’m learning something about my boundaries on a sailboat.

I don’t mean to be down; I’m just ready to get there.

alex