I cant survive here!

I’m really starting to feel uncomfortable back home, I don’t know if I can survive here. My sister thing (police brutality) has me really freaked out, and I guess it is a common occurrence. A friend sent me this link  http://www.hrw.org/reports98/police/uspo41.htm , I found it disturbing.

The other thing that is bugging me is I was approached by the city marina here and asked to sign a “Docking contract” for being at anchor. I asked if I could have some time to fax it to my attorney friend as I wasn’t good with reading contracts. Some of the people in the office took offense to this. I was informed that everybody signs it and its okay. I wanted to read it and explained that I wasn’t docking. I was also informed that I could only anchor for 72 hours without “special permission” from the dock master. One guy in the office said “Your in America now, we all have to sigh contracts, contracts for cell phones and contracts for credit cards”. I tried to explain that I don’t have a cell phone contract and I don’t have credit cards, they just kind of looked at me funny. I also don’t have a car, bills, or other liabilities and I believe in taking responsibility for my own actions. Is this really so strange?

The reality is I’m impoverished, broke, and happy. I don’t want to apply for unemployment, welfare, or anything else. I don’t want any kind of “government” support. The only support I want is from the people who believe in me and what I’m doing. Cant people see that “THESE KIND OF CONTRACTS STRIP US OF OUR FREEDOM”! I’m not trying to be difficult, nor am I looking for a fight. I just want to be left alone to fix up my boat over the next few weeks so I can sail out of here. I looked at charts last night and have decided to do the bare minimum to Splendid and set sail for South America, I just don’t think I can survive here, and “NO” I’m not going to buy a fishing license, “it’s my right as a human being to feed myself”, never mind my rights as an American!  When I was in the Marquesas and asked the police if I could shoot chickens with my sling shot he said “Of course, feel free to take chickens, pigs, fruit or fish, it’s your right”.

I’m kind of caught up in the “I need this, and I need that” thing. I didn’t have much on Namaste when I left and even if I do leave without an EPIRB, I’ll still be safer then if I was driving a car on the freeway.

I wonder if it is me that has changed so much, I don’t think America could have changed this much in the last 5 years?

Peace love, and sorry for venting today!

– Alex