129.2 miles 2 go

Life’s funny.

I’ve been so focused on my destination, getting there, making it, now I’m troubled at the idea of leaving the refuge of the Pacific. These past 6 weeks, protected by the isolation of the sea, have enlightened me to a few things. I may not know what I want, but I have a better sense of self!

The power of persuasion, marketing, brain washing, society, government, religion! All tell us who we are, and what is “right and wrong”. They make us question ourselves, and entrust our sense of self to something “better” as if we are not capable of making our own decisions.

I have 2 warrants out for my arrest in Maryland because I refused to pay fines ($500) for not wearing a life vest and reckless endangerment while jet skiing. “To whom” I asked the policeman, “to yourself” he replied. I was just having a nice day with my family playing on the river. “how dare you…, if you think there is a force of nature that will make me pay this your sadly mistaken”!  “Then your failure to appear will result in a warrant for your arrest”! I became hostel as stated yelling, before I was arrested, and the situation got out of hand, my cousin Steve stepped in. His brother is a senior cop and was a friend of the officer.  Steve separated us and sent me back to the truck, and no, I wasn’t drinking, and no I’ve never paid it!

Speaking of drinking, my X fiancé was given a DUI after having 2 glasses of wine with dinner. The whole process cost over $10,000. What has happened to our freedom, have we forgotten?

I don’t need the “guilt machines”. I am a good person and successful despite the fact that I’m financially impoverished. I will not be controlled! I don’t need to wear designer labels, perfumes, or drive a car. I don’t want to work my life away to buy a home that is not really mine. Try not paying your taxes and see what happens. I will not end up on my death bed thinking “I wish I had”!

A quote:

“… the strongest man in the world is he who stands most alone.”

–        Henric Ibsen

–        An Enemy of the people

How many times a day do you see billboards, hear ads on the radio, watch them on T.V, or see them in magazines? We think we block them out but we really don’t. Society tells us who we are, what we should smell like, dress like, and how we should act. I can’t believe people are sitting around watching “reality TV”, Jessica Simpson, Paris Hilton…, really? Are these the role models we want for our children? I have a strong will, and even I was controlled by these dark forces, thank God I’ve broken away.

I know so many people who tell me they can’t go cruising because they have children and need to keep them in school? Do you think that the education provided to our children by our system is that good? I’m sorry, I don’t have children, but I would hope I would feel a responsibility to educate them myself. And what a better way to do it then showing them the world.

If I wasn’t making landfall on a beautiful and isolated south Pacific Island I would be in a sheer sense of panic. I’ve grown accustom to the peace and living in tune with nature. I spent most of my life in either New York City or Los Angeles. I don’t know that I could ever live in a big city again. I fear that society would strike its blow, and Alex Dorsey would be gone forever.  

Have you ever driven through Vermont? It took me a while to figure out why I liked it so much, and then someone told me “There are no billboards”, “brilliant” I thought.

I guess I’m babbling again.

I hope no one took offense of the religion reference. I don’t associate God with religion. I believe that organized religion separates man, while spirituality unites mankind. I believe it is fundamental to us as individuals to find our own path in life. The meaning of God should be as unique to us as our fingerprints. But then what the hell do I know, I’m just one guy floating around in the sea in search of peace.

“but I still haven’t found what I’m looking for”

–        U2

Peace everyone.

-Alex